Learning to Live

The Dalai Lama once said, "The purpose of our lives is to be happy." And I think this quote sums up my life, and should probably sum up the lives of more people in the world. Regardless of your religious beliefs, I strongly feel that the we are all here to be happy. Sure, we all have different plans to find our happy, but in the end I think we are all meant to be happy with the way things turned out.  I'm generally a pretty happy person, at least that's what I hear. And I do think it's true- to an extent. I do get down occasionally. But usually if you see me sad/mad, I'm trying to be that way because I feel like I have a reason to feel that way. Don't ask me why I do it, because I really don't have a valid explanation, but I do. Perhaps it has something to do with the fact that's how the world has shaped our society. People are always complaining about something in the world, no matter how big or small the issue is. You turn on the news and all ...

A couple of weeks ago I posted about how I didn't want to do the musical because I was embarrassed of how dumb it made me look. I am so happy to say that I got over it and gave it my all-- even if it resulted in people making fun of me (although, I did have some people tell me I was a crowd favorite). And so even though I didn't have a huge part (thank God) I did the best I could and I had a freaking blast! The preparation for this show might have sucked a lot but in the end it wound up to be worth it. Going from work to practice every single night really cramped my social life, but eventually I accepted that hanging out with my musical buds was my social life, even when they were jerks. When you spend that much time with people and you're working towards a common goal, it's easy to become a mini-family in a way. I can honestly say that I will miss spending time with these people. I thought I would be excited about the show coming to an end, but I'm actually prett...

Tonight one of my close friends send me a link to her new blog and to be honest, I was shocked my what she had to say. She talked about how much her first year of college changed her and just reading her blog, I knew that she was right. This year I had so many different feelings about the change that she talked about. In some ways, I liked watching my friends change and mature and come to terms with the people they really are. But in other ways, it was hard watching them go and make new friends to replace me. I know that sounds selfish, but I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels that way. Either way, I'm happy to see that after freshman year many of my friends have changed for the better and I still love hanging out with them. Of course, my friends weren't the only ones that changed this year. I know that I changed a lot too. And I'm hoping it was for the better. I went into college in something that could be considered a relationship but wasn't really becau...

I was pretty excited when I heard we were doing a musical this summer. I couldn't wait to spend time with all of my dorky choir friends again and redeem myself from the last musical I was kicked out of. Don't get me wrong, I'm still pretty excited, at least I am after one rehearsal (I'll get back to you in a couple of weeks about how excited I still am...) but something just seems amiss. It's super great to be reunited with my buddies again but I guess I'm just kind of bummin because we are missing some of the crew. And I also forget how dumb I feel doing this stuff. I love singing. I love dancing-as a joke. But this is like pretty legit shit and I feel like I just look ridiculous. I used to not care about that but something has definitely changed. I'm thinking I started somewhat caring about what people think of me when I went to college. It was hard to make friends just being myself because I'm pretty crazy and I guess people might get overwhelmed ...

Working at a daycare has its ups and downs. I could say it's more of one than the other, but it really depends on your perspective. I love LOVE my kiddies and they actually do a pretty great job teaching me while I do my best to teach them the basics of living... and doing a good job of it. We make sure to practice our ABCs and counting numbers and of course we use "please" and "thank you." We do all of this and more- including potty training! I can't say that spending the day with a room full of 15 screaming toddlers is at the top of my list of favorite things to do, but surprisingly it comes close. These children have such a different and innocent view on life and it's great to see what they do with it. I can honestly say that these kids will probably be a big part of my life- at least for the summer. I think one of the most important things these kids have taught me is to enjoy the little things in life. They are so entertained by the simplest thing...