Two
I've been busy procrastinating on pretty much everything productive and spending a lot of time in my own head as I work on enjoying silence and simply being by myself. This is not one of my strong suits as I am constantly go-go-go, but it's a work in progress. Anyway, at the urging of one of my very best friends (sup Kel), I took an Enneagram personality test. Before you roll your eyes about how personality tests are maybe a load of crap, this one is special because Ryan O'Neal of Sleeping At Last has taken it upon himself to study all of the personality types and write a song for each type. I love to learn about myself and I LOVE music, so this is truly the best of both worlds. O'Neal also hosts a podcast where he breaks down each song and the lyrics within it.
If you made it this far, I recommend that you take the test and listen to your song. I hope that you can get as much out of it as I did. Not only does this particular test tell you your strengths, but also some of your biggest flaws. It can be tough to hear these, but also so incredibly important to our own personal development.
I am a two. Twos typically go out of their way to help others. They are genuine, loving, helpful, considerate, and kind. WOW. Think about the ego boost that I got from reading and listening to how great I was as a two. It doesn't help that I've heard people say this about me for years. My head was getting too big, so it's a good thing I immediately learned what some of my biggest flaws are.
I take a lot of pride in all of those nice things people say about me. In the words of my brother, "I'm too into myself." How could I not be?! People say nice things. I write them down, so I never forget, so that I can remind myself that I am NOT WORTHLESS. Shocker, there's a flaw. I fear being worthless or unloved. Although a lot of my gestures are genuine, a lot of them are also to get that praise or to get the love that I so badly crave. Putting others first makes me secretly angry and resentful. Sometimes it's a secret even to me! I am constantly frustrated because people don't rise to my expectations.
Learning more about my flaws has been huge for me. I've spent a lot of time trying to build myself up, but now I know that's not the answer to becoming the best version of myself. I can continue to be kind and generous, but I need to chase away the fear of being unworthy or unloved. I can continue to do nice things for people, but without expecting anything in return. I have a long way to go in terms of personal development (I think we all do), but taking a deeper look at my flaws has been a good place to start.
If you made it this far, I recommend that you take the test and listen to your song. I hope that you can get as much out of it as I did. Not only does this particular test tell you your strengths, but also some of your biggest flaws. It can be tough to hear these, but also so incredibly important to our own personal development.
I am a two. Twos typically go out of their way to help others. They are genuine, loving, helpful, considerate, and kind. WOW. Think about the ego boost that I got from reading and listening to how great I was as a two. It doesn't help that I've heard people say this about me for years. My head was getting too big, so it's a good thing I immediately learned what some of my biggest flaws are.
I take a lot of pride in all of those nice things people say about me. In the words of my brother, "I'm too into myself." How could I not be?! People say nice things. I write them down, so I never forget, so that I can remind myself that I am NOT WORTHLESS. Shocker, there's a flaw. I fear being worthless or unloved. Although a lot of my gestures are genuine, a lot of them are also to get that praise or to get the love that I so badly crave. Putting others first makes me secretly angry and resentful. Sometimes it's a secret even to me! I am constantly frustrated because people don't rise to my expectations.
Learning more about my flaws has been huge for me. I've spent a lot of time trying to build myself up, but now I know that's not the answer to becoming the best version of myself. I can continue to be kind and generous, but I need to chase away the fear of being unworthy or unloved. I can continue to do nice things for people, but without expecting anything in return. I have a long way to go in terms of personal development (I think we all do), but taking a deeper look at my flaws has been a good place to start.
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