Learning to Live

A lot of my writing comes from reading first, so it's no surprise that this post will bring you to an essay by Mary Laura Phillpot that is featured in her book I Miss You When I Blink.   This particular essay starts out by reminding the reader to put down the phone and Post-it notes and stop rewriting the to-do list in your head. WOW. RELATE. The moment I wake up I have a to do list in my head and that list just gets modified as the day goes on. I wish this was just a daily thing, but I find that I do it for my life all the time. And it is EXHAUSTING. It's exhausting to feel the need to do it all and do it well and be kind to others along the way. I find myself in a state of "simmering, low-grade resentment" at times and it's sucky because it's not even anyone else's fault. It's all mine and my stupid brain. I see myself the way I think the world sees me, which means that I only feel worth when I'm getting something checked of my list. It do...

I've been busy procrastinating on pretty much everything productive and spending a lot of time in my own head as I work on enjoying silence and simply being by myself. This is not one of my strong suits as I am constantly go-go-go, but it's a work in progress. Anyway, at the urging of one of my very best friends (sup Kel), I took an Enneagram personality test . Before you roll your eyes about how personality tests are maybe a load of crap, this one is special because Ryan O'Neal of Sleeping At Last has taken it upon himself to study all of the personality types and write a song for each type . I love to learn about myself and I LOVE music, so this is truly the best of both worlds. O'Neal also hosts a podcast  where he breaks down each song and the lyrics within it. If you made it this far, I recommend that you take the test and listen to your song. I hope that you can get as much out of it as I did. Not only does this particular test tell you your strengths, but also ...