In My Life
It's kind of interesting to think about how often I find myself talking about my future life. As if I actually have a clue as to how it will turn out. I talk about my husband and my kids and the nice things we're going to have. In reality, nothing could work out how I want it to, and what will I do then?
List of things I currently want to end up with in my life:
-Husband (Obvi...) But this husband has a long list of requirements. None of which I feel obligated to post. How naive am I to think that I will find a man that fulfills all of these requirements. I know I need to find a man who I love for who he is- even if he doesn't have the amazing brown eyes I've been dreaming about for my whole life.
-7 kids. When I tell people I want 7 kids they look at me like I'm crazy. And who knows, maybe I am. Chances are I'll change my mind and wind up with 2 or 3 and most likely be okay with it. I'm 19 so I really have no clue what will happen.
- A job. No brainer. Preferably a job I like that is close to home.
- To own my own home. I know this seems like something that will be a given if I have a family, but honestly times are changing. And who knows if I will be able to afford a house. I also hope my house is able to fit the needs of my children and allow them to have their friends over to chill. Random I know, but something that means a lot to me. *Needs to be close to P-town :)
-To have a cabin. I want somewhere to escape to with the ones I love. Somewhere to forget about my problems and simply have fun.
-A kayak. Somewhat random but something I know I would enjoy. A chance to go out on the lake and enjoy the peacefulness of life.
-A pontoon. Gotta enjoy my alcohol somewhere and I might as well do it in style.
-To travel. Travel everywhere. I want to see the world. Ireland, Italy, Greece are my top 3. But might as well do it all! And take my kids on roadtrips. Classic roadtrips to the Badlands and stuff. I want them to see their country and explore as much as possible.
-To help my kids pay for college.
-A dog. A dog seems like it just ties the whole family image together quite nicely and it gives you someone who loves you no matter what you do wrong.
I know this list seems like an obvious list, but I truly think people don't appreciate the things that we already have in our lives. I'm going to be a teacher, people. There's no way I will be able to afford all of these things. And who knows, even if I could, what would I truly want? All I know is that even with this list written down, I can say that I shouldn't want all these things. And I shouldn't talk about what my life will be like because I have NO CLUE.
Although it's really hard for me, I know that I need to step back and enjoy the life I have now. Let the cards fall where they may. I may not end up with everything I want, but as long as I end up happy I think I'll be okay. My friends and I also talk about how nice it would be to fast forward a couple years and make sure we wind up alright. But by talking about that, it's almost like we're wishing our lives away now. We often forget how important it is to trust God. Everything will be okay in the end as long as you have faith. You may not have everything you want in life, but you will be happy. We need to focus on living in the now and accept the fact that our lives may not end up how we want them to.
List of things I currently want to end up with in my life:
-Husband (Obvi...) But this husband has a long list of requirements. None of which I feel obligated to post. How naive am I to think that I will find a man that fulfills all of these requirements. I know I need to find a man who I love for who he is- even if he doesn't have the amazing brown eyes I've been dreaming about for my whole life.
-7 kids. When I tell people I want 7 kids they look at me like I'm crazy. And who knows, maybe I am. Chances are I'll change my mind and wind up with 2 or 3 and most likely be okay with it. I'm 19 so I really have no clue what will happen.
- A job. No brainer. Preferably a job I like that is close to home.
- To own my own home. I know this seems like something that will be a given if I have a family, but honestly times are changing. And who knows if I will be able to afford a house. I also hope my house is able to fit the needs of my children and allow them to have their friends over to chill. Random I know, but something that means a lot to me. *Needs to be close to P-town :)
-To have a cabin. I want somewhere to escape to with the ones I love. Somewhere to forget about my problems and simply have fun.
-A kayak. Somewhat random but something I know I would enjoy. A chance to go out on the lake and enjoy the peacefulness of life.
-A pontoon. Gotta enjoy my alcohol somewhere and I might as well do it in style.
-To travel. Travel everywhere. I want to see the world. Ireland, Italy, Greece are my top 3. But might as well do it all! And take my kids on roadtrips. Classic roadtrips to the Badlands and stuff. I want them to see their country and explore as much as possible.
-To help my kids pay for college.
-A dog. A dog seems like it just ties the whole family image together quite nicely and it gives you someone who loves you no matter what you do wrong.
I know this list seems like an obvious list, but I truly think people don't appreciate the things that we already have in our lives. I'm going to be a teacher, people. There's no way I will be able to afford all of these things. And who knows, even if I could, what would I truly want? All I know is that even with this list written down, I can say that I shouldn't want all these things. And I shouldn't talk about what my life will be like because I have NO CLUE.
Although it's really hard for me, I know that I need to step back and enjoy the life I have now. Let the cards fall where they may. I may not end up with everything I want, but as long as I end up happy I think I'll be okay. My friends and I also talk about how nice it would be to fast forward a couple years and make sure we wind up alright. But by talking about that, it's almost like we're wishing our lives away now. We often forget how important it is to trust God. Everything will be okay in the end as long as you have faith. You may not have everything you want in life, but you will be happy. We need to focus on living in the now and accept the fact that our lives may not end up how we want them to.
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