Learning to Live

Tonight one of my close friends send me a link to her new blog and to be honest, I was shocked my what she had to say. She talked about how much her first year of college changed her and just reading her blog, I knew that she was right. This year I had so many different feelings about the change that she talked about. In some ways, I liked watching my friends change and mature and come to terms with the people they really are. But in other ways, it was hard watching them go and make new friends to replace me. I know that sounds selfish, but I'm sure I'm not the only one that feels that way. Either way, I'm happy to see that after freshman year many of my friends have changed for the better and I still love hanging out with them. Of course, my friends weren't the only ones that changed this year. I know that I changed a lot too. And I'm hoping it was for the better. I went into college in something that could be considered a relationship but wasn't really becau...

I was pretty excited when I heard we were doing a musical this summer. I couldn't wait to spend time with all of my dorky choir friends again and redeem myself from the last musical I was kicked out of. Don't get me wrong, I'm still pretty excited, at least I am after one rehearsal (I'll get back to you in a couple of weeks about how excited I still am...) but something just seems amiss. It's super great to be reunited with my buddies again but I guess I'm just kind of bummin because we are missing some of the crew. And I also forget how dumb I feel doing this stuff. I love singing. I love dancing-as a joke. But this is like pretty legit shit and I feel like I just look ridiculous. I used to not care about that but something has definitely changed. I'm thinking I started somewhat caring about what people think of me when I went to college. It was hard to make friends just being myself because I'm pretty crazy and I guess people might get overwhelmed ...