Decisions, decisions

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Last August I opened up to social media about something that I had been dealing with for a long time. It has been a little over a year since I came to the realization that I needed to make a decision to get help and within that year I realized the true power of our decisions.

For a long time I was terrified of making decisions because I was always scared that I would make the wrong one, but as I have gotten older, I realized that the truth lies at the heart of every decisions. That truth is the life that we want for ourselves. This year I was fortunate enough to travel to a lot of beautiful places with some of my favorite people. That is mostly because at the beginning of 2018 I made a list of places I would go and I made it happen. Simply making the decision to live the life that you want is all it takes to get that life.

People will often comment on my fun and adventurous life and forget the work that it takes to get there. We tend to believe that the grass is always greener on the other side, but we must understand that every choice has a choice to not do something else. When people tell me they might be envious of one of my experiences, I find that I realized I'm envious of the lifestyle of others. These lifestyles don't come without carefully considering the decision to not do something else. When I was younger, I thought I would definitely have started a family by the age of 25, but when I made the decision to move to Mexico, I gave that dream up. The cool thing is that I am content and happy with my current life and I rarely even call my mom to help me make decisions anymore! One of my best friends always reminds me that you have to know what you want to get what you want, and even though I'm not entirely sure what I want far into the future, the current goal is to just be happy. And so for now, my life will be filled with beautiful experiences because I make the decision to have those beautiful experiences. Although some might assume that these things just happen to me or that I'm lucky (HA!), I know that I have an amazing life because I am a YES girl with ambition and a drive to make my life the best that it can be. 

Sometimes decisions are easy, but sometimes they are really hard and that's okay. Just remember to think about what makes your heart happy and you will find yourself exactly where you are supposed to be. 

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